All spring while i huffed and puffed my way thru my one mile runs - hey we all have to start somewhere - I watched other new moms out running, with their bf's/husbands out running with them, pushing the baby in the stroller. It frustrated me. It hurt my feelings. I felt and often asked myself, "am i not important enough to him for him to want to run with me?"
Its one thing to be married to an athlete, its a whole nother notion and concept to live with and love a triathlete, who can log 100 miles of running in a week on his tough weeks. Triathletes (depending on their priorities and if they are married with kids or not) usually workout 10-20+ hours a week depending on their racing/workout schedules.
For someone who can run a bazillion (hey to us newer runners thats what it is) miles in two hours (aka very fast) to willingly force themself to run with a partner who huffs and puffs their way for a mile (im up to three now) at nine to eleven minute mile pace....its torture. It literally and does physcially exhaust them more to run super slow for two miles than it does to run twelve miles at their fast pace.
It's not like i didn't understand. But with trying to get my short workouts in around both our work schedules, he works days, me three nights a week, and around his workouts, and the baby's eating/sleeping schedule...like any new mom...just managign to get one workout in feels like a major triumph. (don't ask about going to the gym...thats another post).
So this year, when i've been able to get out and get moving...i don't know which hurts worse...seeing those power mommas pushing (ok flying past you in 5k's) their double strollers like its nothing...or running and seeing all these other mom's having hubbies who run with them. Both sting!
Well, I said enough's enough (new concept for me this year - I'm taking back my life and setting new boundaries and new expectations in all aspects of my life). I told DH i wanted him to run with me...cause i do need a running partner for my long runs and i want to run together, granted i am slow now but a year or two from now i will be able to run farther and faster.
I really think DH just didn't realize what we women see and experience when we run (see two paragraphs above), not mention all the things going through our minds (the baby, work, dinner, cleaning,errands, our bodies that aren't losing baby weight fast enough etc) and how different it is to work out and try to get our old bodies back (yes its possible). After a talk in early July, DH made a commitment to me, he'd go to a local park with me and help me get a long run every monday...3.1 miles.
This post isn't really about all the above. No its about how every monday since this agreement...it has been rainy or extremly hot and humid. lol Why? Makes it more challenging i guess. But equally frustrating. I need these long runs.
I'm up to the challenge, however when it rains...who cares if i get soaked...but the baby? Nope. Hot and Humid...these long runs would be less torturous if it wasn't twice as exhausting in the heat and humidity.
But I'm doing them! Needless to say, I don't run them nonstop yet. Like in my 5k's I stop once or twice for a minute and down some water. But they are getting easier! Yep.
And i know they are getting easier cause friday i PUSHED the baby in the stroller and ran 2.25 miles, twice, once in the morning and once in the afternoon, and i didn't pass out afterwards. : )
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