Going for a swim today

I think we live in a tropical rain forest. The humidity here is like 98% and has been for several days. So when i go for my run tonight (after DH's bike ride and hopefully it will be slightly cooler), I will be 'swimming' my 1.5 mile run/jog. I don't swim. I can swim. Enough to save myself in the ocean, or to play with kids (I think i still remembe how to swim lol).

But speaking of swimming, I really wanted to be ready to fit into a swimsuit for this summer (had my son at the end of Oct '09), but that hasn't happened. Partly due to excuses, partly due to adjusting to motherhood, partly due to not getting any sleep for 8 months. Mostly cause i just didn't make myself (and my workouts) a priority. But I am learning how to do that this year and I have come quite far.

Anyhow, I am making it a goal to find and buy a swimsuit this fall, even if its expensive and i have to put it on a credit card, and I'm going to go to the pool at the gym and improve my swimming abilities. I want to be able to be comfortable (both in a swimsuit and in the water) when my son is ready for the pool next year.

Plus, it should help tone my stomach some more.

Its a big goal, especially since i am so self conscous of my stomach, which despite eating healthy for the last 9 months and running for the last 6 months, still looks like i'm three to four months pregnant. : (

But I'm learning to set big goals for myself as well and go after them.

I have even entertained thoughts of doing a half marathon in my head the last couple of weeks. Nothing serious, the thought just sits there for a moment or two. A year ago i might have said maybe someday (like when i'm 45), now its like...as soon as i'm done having kids (plan on in 2012 and 2013/14) and i won't be ready next year.   My overachieving triathlete of DH is rubbing off on me. Mostly a good thing.

Until i go out and 'swim' while running and thinking 'why the hell am i doing this?'.  My runs are beginning to feel good though, my legs enjoy that burn (while my lungs are going hell no, no more).